Im still not sure what I want, but I can tell that its not what most people have.  Maybe I’m just confused. Some people have told me im lost. I know that.  Where am i supposed to be going? I know that I’m not ready to die yet. I know that I dont feel like I’ve properly lived yet. But I’m not sure what that means. I see people living every day. I see them living in condos and high rises.  They live in offices. They live under bridges and in back alleys. Is that what living feels like? I dont want to feel like that.  I am passionately seeking something else and yet I am not quite certain what it is. And I’m worried that I might have missed it.